Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Proud moments

Hello to my blog world.  I don't know if anyone reads these but like a fellow blogger friend shared with me once, 'it's really an outlet on my feelings'.  She even said she wished she could write a blog that no one would read.  Although I get it, we laughed and said I guess that would be old-fashioned journal writing.  I do keep a journal; many in fact.  Just certain moments require a different outlet.  Since I haven't published anything in 2013 I thought I could jot down a few moments to sum up the last two months.
I've become somewhat of a homebody lately.  Since I am a 'homemaker' I do laundry every day and make my family dinner and run errands.  Rejecting gym invitations and having to be somewhere is unlike me.  But I do feel like my world will be turned upside down and I will have to create a 'new normal'.  Sometimes I still can't believe I'm adopting!  I hate the phrase 'i'm in my adoption process'.  And what a long one it has been.  I continually catch myself saying something negative and then realize I'm insulting God's perfect timing.  I read the other day and made my facebook status 'a grateful heart protects you from negative thinking'.  That's for sure! I love hearing about someone's adoption story.  They are all uniquely beautiful.  Who am I to tell God how to script mine? Like I'm a better writer? Each time I share my story with someone for the first time and I get to the part where I have a friend in Ethiopia whom I met at Capernwray Bible School in Texas 24 years ago, and she lives 5 minutes away from my daughter's orphanage and she visits and gives me 'extra' updates and pictures, I love the person's reaction.  I get goosebumps.  What a blessing!
I have been feeling many new feelings lately.  Watching my biological children grow and exceed their goals and becoming wonderful, mature adults.  Jacob, my oldest, got accepted to the University of Michigan (U of M) and made me cry when I read one of his application essays 'one reason why I want to go to U of M is that it is close enough to home to visit my family as I will have an adopted sister to get to know'.  Cry! Then he swims his last swim meet last week earning four medals by reaching his best swim times in his four year career.  Cry! My daughter,Blaire  is talking about helping others and sticking up for her faith and morals in many situations. Cry! To top it all off, today I receive a video from my baby's orphanage, and witness her softly talking to the caregiver and gently feeding a stuffed dog and taking care of a stuffed Mickey.  I thought I was getting just a short update on her weight, height, etc. and when I hit print my printer kept spitting out full page pictures of my 3 1/2 year old standing on one foot, pointing to her eyes and ears when instructed, smiling and looking all too cute and healthy. Cry! Wow, I think I'm going to stay inside, on this cold, snowy morning a little while longer, relishing in God's goodness.
Oh, before I forget, I want to let you all know that my baby's birth mother will go to court March 8 to relinquish her rights a final time.  Pray for her.  Then we should get a court date to go visit maybe 6 weeks later! Cry!
I Thessalonians 5:18 Give thanks in ALL circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.